Sunday, July 13, 2008

how come?

i can't figure this out.

this entire week things have been 'going wrong' for me.

whole week.

practical things, personal things, thing things.

and i just keep pluggin' away.

in the past i woulda kept pluggin' away, but in a mess of
a way. over emotional, over dramatic, overly messy kinda way....

not this time.
this time i've been (fairly) calm. i've been (fairly) mature.
i've been (fairly) level headed.

how come???
am i just getting old???
you know.......who's got the energy to care anymore???
am i just in some weird freaky form of denial???
you know...oh, no, that really didn't rip my heart out....

or???
could it be???
could it be that i'm actually startin' to learn something???

nahhh.
couldn't be.
must be some freaky form of denial in my old age....

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