apparently i was way more agitated than i realized.
i walked thru the guys' office, didn't realize i did
anything, and yo looked up and said 'you okay?'
at breakfast he commented that every single movement
i was making was quick, to the point, and agitated.
he was laughing.
i wasn't grouchy. just weird.
and the boys were staring at me amazed.
i wanted to talk to them about life and where they
wanted to go with it.
i slammed the rice milk container down.
yo put his head on the table and just laughed.
'never seen you slam the milk down before, mom.'
i grinned.
i didn't even know i had.
zakk suggested we postpone the talk for another
day.
i laughed now.
no.
really.
i'm okay.
no.
really.
you're not.
we all laughed.
okay.
maybe not.
we postponed the talk.
i'm still weird.
a friend wrote.
i answered.
she noticed the weird.
it helps to have really intuitive friends.
it also helps that she happens to have a
counseling background!
she gently put out what she thought was goin on.
'you holdin' his anger?'
ohhhhhhh.
um.
yeah.
yeah.
why yes.
i am.
ya know.......there's nothing like the support
i have all around me.
yeah.
i am.
whew.
i am.
i want to just say i'll put it down.
but i think i need more than that....
think i'm gonna head out into my back yard.
bury something.
or someone.
grin.
that'll feel good.
then maybe i can move on......
life is weird.
i'm weird.
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