being human

what do you do when someone values you?
when someone puts it right in your face and
says you're worth something to them?

i'm lucky enough to get that sometimes thru
my work. and being the incredibly together
person i am, i usually smile and nod and put
the thought right down. over there. way over
there.

sometimes i TRY to hold it, but i just don't
seem to be too good at that.

today someone did something for me that put
it in my face. and i just didn't know what to do.

i took a shower. got in my psychic phone booth
and thought about it. really thought about it.

and something happened.

i got flooded with gratitude. just filled with this
incredible thankful feeling that someone could
connect with a thought i had. that i can make
a difference to someone.

we all can.
we all do.
and yet, how many of us really know?
how many of us put that thought down.
over there. way over there.

and i wonder why.

it doesn't mean we're great and mighty and
above anyone....
what i think it really means is we're equal.
we're the same.
and that's how come we can touch each other.
cause we're right there in it, sharin' it.

it means we're connected. not alone.

is that the fear?
how can that be the fear?
what the heck is the fear?
why put it down. over there.
why???
cause then we matter???
isn't that the desire???
ah..but then if we matter......does that mean
someone cares?
and then if they care.....
does that mean we'll just let them down???

is that the fear???
maybe it's a whole big mixture of fears.

i just don't know.

what i do know is that i understood today
that my humanness connects me to others.
and the more i open my heart, the more connected
i am.

maybe that's the fear......
the more i believe i touch, the more i know i have
to open.

down to that ol' cellular level, ya know?
grin.

and yeah, that's scary.
and way cool.
all at the same time.