watching the hurt in the world.....

i cried this morning.
i listened to the story of someone getting hurt
one more time....and i cried.

did he deserve it?
man.
does anyone deserve it?

did he push the other person to the max?
yeah.
he's real good at that.
real good.

i listened and thought of all the hurt he's
had, and i cried.

i guess he'll get by.
i keep hearin' the stinkin' word 'resilient.'

i used to grab that word and hold it like it
meant something.

now it just feels like a cop out word.

is anyone REALLY resilient???
or do things just get buried and buried
and buried?

the lesson for me over and over?
let go.
you can't fix things.
let go.

does letting go mean stop tryin' to fix things?
then i guess i've got it.

does letting go mean not caring?
cause then i'm not doin such a good job of it.

once again i watch and feel helpless.

and i wonder how in this world someone can
open their heart for real?

today seems like a good day to pry at the
edges and keep it from closing up tight......

so i'll pry.
i'll keep it from slamming shut.
and maybe that will make me
stronger somehow........