helpless

what do you do when someone you love hurts so bad
they want to die? and there's nothing you can do
about it.
not one stinkin' thing.

i tried. i tried asking her what i could do,
what would help. and then i tried distracting her.
the pain was so intense i could just feel it
inside me too.

i did all the 'right' things.
yeah.
big deal.

i hung up and paced the room.
what can i do??

i did a few networking things...calling to have
someone else check in. that kinda thing.
big deal.
big stinkin' deal.

there isn't anything i can do to help and i sit
and watch her hurting so badly.

if we only knew how connected we really are.

if we only knew how much we mattered to each other.

maybe none of this woulda happened......
but we don't.

we can be so blind sometimes.
and right now i feel about as helpless as ya get.

what do i do with this????

well......i guess i can do one thing....
i can watch it. i can look at the feeling.
and i can allow the feeling.

i can allow hearts to break.

and not kick and scream my way thru it.

easier said than done.....