shakin' the snide aside....

a scathing birthday card.....
ick.
i got one of those this past year.

it sucked.
made me cry.
started a chain of events that
made me very sad.

i returned it to the sender.

grin.

yeah.
felt good.

kinda claimed my adult status in my
forever challenging family. put a little
posty note on it saying that treating me
like a bad little girl didn't work for me.

grin.
grin.
grin.

that's not usually my style.

it felt fabulous tho.

and now.......it's her birthday.

ah.
here it is.
shall i go the scathing route?
nahhh not me.
just skip it?
nahhhh just adds to the negative.

what is it you want to live, ter???

i settled myself down.

concentrate on the love.
on seeing the person.

sigh.

yeah.
that's what i want....

so i pulled out a pretty card.
what to write??

snide comments ran thru my head.
shoot.
wrong direction.
ahhh i got a long way to go til i hit
enlightenment.
smiled. shook that thought out of my head
and waited til i could get peaceful.

'wishing you a peaceful birthday'
and signed it with love....

sealed it and thought yet another snide thought.

oh man.
stopped.
rethought.
can't send it with snide thoughts.
can't i be a little bit bigger than this??

went back to the seeing her.
hold onto that, ter.
hold onto that....

and send some peace out into the world.

shaking the snide aside......
i'm workin' on holdin' the peace.......
and sendin' someone who needs it some love.....