tin cans, life struggles and tears...

she's got this beautiful heart that touches me
way beyond what she knows. we've never met. just
thru email, blogs and the stuff we make.

and i love her.

she came up with the tin can idea.

reachin' out to me one day sayin' that all i needed
to do was holler thru the tin can and she'd be
at the other end. and she has been.

i got up this morning to a 'tin can rant' from
her in my email box.

funny thing.....life can knock us around in a lotta
different ways....but when it knocks the kids in
our lives around.....in ways that we can't do
anything about....that's when we lose it.

i read her words and went a little crazy myself.

situations like she wrote about make me pull my
hair, my eyes get wide, i pace the floor...and
i cannot find my trust.

so you can see, i wouldn't be much help to her!
i tried...and sometimes just sharin' is good.
but yeah, it's lame. what we need are magic wands.

there are so many kids out there who just have
such sucky situations. really bad stuff....

sometimes what i do to get by is i find an adult
who grew up with some of that stuff...and i think
of who they are now...and what they carry from
that...the good stuff that they've found. yeah,
the hard way for sure, but they've got it.

and that's one of the the perks of bone sigh arts...
i hear those stories. i hear stories that make
me cry and then i read things like 'i wouldn't change
it for anything, because it's brought me to who
i am now.' and i shake my head.

the human spirit astounds me.

i think of one of my best friends....who's childhood
i describe as 'straight out of a horror movie.'
she's one of the most beautiful people i've ever known.

so i grab these people and circle them around me.

and i hang on to the fact that people have more
strength in them than i can imagine......

and then i cry a lot...