a fun day....

today's gonna be fun!
i get to meet the man who used to
be the boy that i had a crush on all thru
high school.

yeah, yeah, i had a thousand crushes....and
i really did....but he was always at the top
of the list. always.

i scared him to death tellin' him all that...
prolly shoulda kept it to myself. but how
can you not tell someone that?!
i would be rememberin' that on my death bed
if someone ever told me that!! it's so fun.
and if you didn't think you mattered back
then, well it tells you different. kinda cool.

and i can tell him because like um.......
that was about thirty thousand years ago.
he's totally safe.

there's families on both sides and partners
and the only interest is friendship....
which is also way cool. i see his name in my
email box and kinda shake my head. life is
too weird.

would i have believed this if you told me
when i was sixteen? nahhh no way.

first of all, i'd never believe i could really
be this old!

i've been lookin' back a bit....at who that
sixteen year old girl was and how far she's
traveled.....

i never ever ever coulda predicted the road....
the first part, yeah. pretty predictable.
it was that waking up i did along the way....
ohhhhhh not sure you can predict that or anything
after that!

as i look back at all that, i see the tiny wakin'
ups along the way. the tiny things that led to
the big one.

do you only have one big one? or do they keep
comin'? do you keep wakin' up???

i feel like i keep gettin' knocked out and then
wakin' up!!! not sure that counts.

one way or another, as i look at the whole darn
journey so far, i like where i've come to and where
i seem to be headin'....

life is weird....and very very good.
gonna be a fun day!