grace

so i noticed something tonite....

and i wondered what it meant....

and i felt like maybe i had something to do with it....

and i felt bad.
and i questioned myself.
and i doubted myself.

and i wanted to ask about it.

and then i stopped.

and i remembered a bone sigh i wrote a long time ago.

i was doin' art at my kitchen table. all alone in the house.
kinda talkin' to the universe as i worked.
and asked to learn grace.

i actually asked for that.
will i never learn?

within an hour, i began to hear about things that would
tear me up. and i struggled. and struggled. and struggled.

and i came up with this bone sigh:

'maybe grace is figuring out it's not all about you.
that people are doing what they're doing for their own
reasons.
not yours.
and maybe grace is accepting that.'

that was a lotta years ago i wrote that.

and i'm pullin' it out tonite and remembering it.

you can't control everything, ter.
you can't control much of anything.

but you can learn grace.
and maybe in the process you'll live love.

one step at a time.
one baby step at a time.