Monday, October 6, 2008

travelin' with myself

editing these darn bone sighs for our last book.
almost done.
enough that i can slow down a bit and
actually read them....

they're mixed all over time wise.
some from the very beginning when i first started
writing them over seven years ago...up to just about
a month or two ago.

what a journey.
as i sat and read them, each one would bring back
a different memory.

sometimes i forget how hard it really was.

it's been and continues to be a journey into
belief.

belief in myself, belief in the connectedness
of us all, belief in love, belief in something
beyond.

i had to lose one world to find another...
i don't ever actually miss the old world...
i just miss some of the illusions i held....
i wish some of the illusions were true.
it would be so much cozier if they were.

but they're not. and what they were led to what
i am now....

it was/is 'be gentle with yourself day.'
reading these quotes was the perfect thing for
me today....

i've traveled far....
there's a tremendously long way to go...
but that's okay.
it's even kinda nice...
i'm learnin' to like travelin' with myself.

readin' these bone sighs just now reminded me
of that.....

feels good.

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