Monday, December 1, 2008

what a day......

well, i certainly spent the day workin' with
emotions.
not one dull minute today.

from some really cool stuff with a good friend.
to some really trusting stuff with my partner.
to some really hard stuff between me and another.

the hard stuff made me sick to my stomach, brought
a few tears, a food binge, and some exhaustion.

so much for not letting emotions drive me!

but all was not lost....
i was aware of the idea of not letting the emotions
drive me...
so i sat back to see what they were and what was up.

wow.
there's some heavy duty ones at work.
did i just say that i was figuring out the concept of
accpetance?!
ya know....don't ever say those things out loud.
the universe will show you you really don't know a thing!

feel like i'm back at square one tonite.

i want to yell and scream and strangle a few people.
sounds like i have acceptance down good, huh?

there is a difference tho.
yeah, i'm sick about it.
and yeah, i'm gonna go to sleep cause it's exhausted
me....
but i also have a knowing that i'll be able to get to
where i need to get with it.

that seems important to me tonite.

and i know a lot of how i do depends on the things
i focus on. there was so much beauty today....i have to
hold that just as much.

life is never dull.
ever.

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