a can of worms

i had no idea i was this emotional today.
i got up early, been hittin' it hard.
even moving with intent and strength.
i've been watchin' my movements.
they've been quick and strong. i've
been liking that.

so then um....
i can feel the tears coming up.
tears.
voice choking.

funny.
i wouldn't have guessed they were right
there today.

i think i don't like some of the rules of life
sometimes.

and i'm kinda thinkin' it's the little girl
part that's gettin' teary. that part of me certainly
doesn't like some of the rules.

maybe bravery has something to do with my
little girl part.

maybe it has something to do with seeing her,
understanding those feelings, and not closing
the door on them........and juggling the rules with
that???

maybe that's part of bravery too....

wow.
i think i opened a can of worms.