i thought i'd be a lot steadier than i have been....
as long as no one asks me 'how you doin'?'
i'm fine.
i asked each son to stop asking me that.
they all agreed. quickly too after seeing the tears.
grin.
but after a call with josh that made me laugh, i know
i'm gonna perk up fast.
he said he was pacin' around before he went in the
shower today as he forgot he can just get in!
(we only have one bathroom here so it's a bit of
a process to get to use it in the morning!)
and then he said 'i stayed in the shower longer
than i had to just because i could!'
i laughed.
and i felt tons lighter.
he'll be here for lunch.
i guess it really will be okay.
now....if i can just walk by his empty studio without
tearin' up, i'll be fine......
1 comment:
Just remember Ter...
You're not saying goodbye to Josh, you're just adjusting to a 'new normal'.
'New Normal' has been the phrase of the year around here. One my brother penned the day of his son's memorial service.
Someone told him that time would help him get over his loss. And that was his comeback.
"I'll never get OVER it, I'll just spend my life adjusting to a new normal."
I try to look at life changes as changes in normal. Things may never be the same, but every change serves it's purpose, and ultimately leads us to better times. Granted, some are harder to move on from than others, but as long as we're moving foward, it's always good.
Of course, I've got at least six more years before I've got to adjust to another 'new normal', hopefully!! ;-
Love ya!
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