a ritual is born

walkin' this morning thinking of all my
buddies who are havin' health issues right
now. whew, it's actually a list of 'em.

i thought of something i had read recently
about a guy who had this great visualization
with his cancer....he used a catfish visual
to clean out the gunk in his body.

i loved that! he didn't want to do some violent
fighting thing....he liked the catfish idea.
and it worked for him.

i've had that catfish in my mind ever since.
maybe i ought to do a routine catfish clean out
just for the heck of it.

but ya know....i don't like catfish.
ick.
i just don't like them.
i mean, i'm sure they're fine fish.
but those whiskery things just give me the
crawlies.

so as much as i wanted to, that just wasn't
workin' for me.

yesterday when i had to walk so fast, it hit
me that walkin' stuff outta me is a visual i
can use.

and this morning as i thought of my friends,
i thought, okay....i want to routinely do an
emotional cleansing....

so i walked fast. and right then i turned
onto one of the more main roads that i don't
always walk on. it's not a 'highway' but
comparatively......it is.

so i thought about that. and thought...
okay....walk out the gunk and leave it on the
highway. and so i walked fast and pictured
the emotional gunk clunking and thudding and
thumping outta my back side...my back, the back
of my legs, back of my head...just all fallin'
back there and landing on the highway.

and then i turned onto my road.
small road. and you can see my house when you turn
on to it. so i looked at my roof.
and i visualized stars and hearts (sounds like
lucky charms cereal!!) and good stuff flyin' outta
the roof right into my front. my face, my heart,
my gut.....

it was so awesome!

i turned into my driveway and grinned.

my house is goofy.
honestly, it just is a clunky, goofy, house.
we never bought it for the outside charm of it.

if you pulled up, it's not the one you'd get out
and say 'oh wow, look at this!"
it's the one you pull up to and say 'oh yeah.
well. there ya go.'

and i laughed. cause i love this place.
it's full of goodness. just smack full of love.

i opened the door and walked into love.

turned out to be a kinda cool little ritual.
i'm thinking i'd like to do it on a routine
basis.

i mean, i guess i do, already. without even
thinking about it.

but i'm thinking that the thinking about it part
is gonna be important.......

so i got me a new ritual today!