Monday, February 16, 2009

a different thought combination....

okay.
let's see....
what were those thoughts/concepts i was
going to combine today???

living fully/trust/magical thinking.

oh yeah.
that was them.

how about these instead:

shutting down/frustration/angry thinking

half grin.

yeah.

the point of this whole blog is not to put
brilliant insights out there (good thing too!)
it's to put my journey out in hopes that others
can relate....

well.....here it is.....
no brilliant insights....just the darn stinkin'
raw journey.

i am frustrated, angry, and closed right now.

and i keep thinking about the earlier blog...
combining all those wonderful thoughts....

so what i wanted to put out here is that at
this moment i can't do it.

i'm hoping to be able to reach that point
within a few hours.....

hmmmmm......a few days???

i don't know what to do with it right now.

i don't want to just say 'well, ter, just
stop and feel gratitude.'

cause i WANT to feel frustrated and angry.

i'm not done with that yet.

so i figure i'll sit with this a bit,
say some real nasty things in my head until
i get it out a bit...
and then see where it takes me.....

thought i'd try and record the journey here.

hmmmmmm........we shall see........

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