letters to janene

she cries a lot quicker these days.
which works for me as i'm always ready
to cry. so we cried together today.

it was a quick check in. she'd been on
the phone for a long time before i got thru.
i didn't want to use up all her energy.

at the end tho, i told her of the project
she has inspired yo, zakk and i to create
and asked her if we could name it after her.

it was quiet on the other end.
and i could hear her crying.
and i knew it'd be okay.

i'm so glad too....as i really didn't want
to change the name. it felt so right to me.

it was a real emotional time for both of us.
i realized how much it meant to me as i tried
to tell her about it.

and as she answered me.....i realized how
much it meant to her.

and so.
it's official.

there will be a new website going up as soon
as we can get it together.

it will be called 'letters to janene'

the hope is that it will be a resource place
for cancer patients and their loved ones.

it's in the very beginning stages. the boys
and i are juggling so much right now....
but it's happening.

if anyone has any questions, suggestions, thoughts
go ahead and email me.....(i think the email is on
the profile page)

we could use all the input we can get.

right now tho....
i am totally full of the emotion of that call.

sometimes i feel so lucky to be here.