my trees

we pulled back in from lunch when my
neighbor stopped us on the driveway
to give us the lowdown of the road
widening they're gonna do on our street.

i had asked him about it because i couldn't
figure out what they were talking about in
the letter that was sent out about this.

he made a few calls....and he filled me in.

i swear i was standing there holding back
the tears.

they'll be cuttin' down the big oak tree
right by the street in our yard.

i love that tree.
and there will be others that will go too.
smaller things...and i didn't even look over
at the big ol' cedar that's sure to go too...

i didn't want to just stand there and cry.
so i fought the tears.

they're gonna put in some drain thing.

i told him at least that would be neat because
i could play in that.

he laughed.

i wasn't kidding.

i was tryin' to find something good about it.
i do like playin' in the high water that
collects and i know that will be fun.

it's not worth tearin' out my trees...
but i was tryin' hard to find something good.

i came in here to work and i just feel so sad.

i watched myself out there.
it was obvious i felt bad.
i said 'well, i knew it was coming. so it's here.'

i just kinda step outside of myself and know it's
beyond me. it's weird. i prolly won't talk about it
to bob or the boys. i'll get quiet.

and i'll watch....or i won't watch....them
take the trees.

one day i'm moving away from all this greedy
building.....