pain

labor...you know...the baby kinda labor...
havin' your kid....

that was THE most empowering experience of
my life.

i had three babies naturally. no drugs.

and there was pain, ya know?

and after you have one baby, you know what
the pain's like. so anything after that
is a bit scarier!

but what got me thru was several things that
i think totally tie in with the post below...

trust.
i really did trust my body.
it made sense to me that my body could do this
without all kindsa medical help.

i trusted.

and releasing into it......releasing into the pain.

i remember that.
if you tensed.
if you tightened.
if you held onto the bedposts (which i did at
one point)....well........that didn't do anything
but add more pain.

if you relaxed. if you concentrated on relaxing.
if you rode the wave...
and the wave was a visual i used a lot the first time...

you were fine.

the pain was there. it was deep. it was a different
pain than i ever had in my life....

but it came and it went.

it did its job.
and it left.

that's it.

and when i had gotten thru it all.......i was a different
person.

i was empowered.
i knew after i had my first baby that i could do anything
i had to.

i knew that.

the pain came, did it's job, left and gave me the knowledge
that i was capable.

i'm thinking i need to remember that.