seeds

i made the call.
heard the news.

it's not good stuff.

held the news, quietly.

drove to my meeting.

a way for me to cope came to mind.
and it came to mind thru trying to do
something good for her.

whenever that happens....
when an idea comes from something i'm
trying to give someone else, i know it's
good stuff. it comes from the right spot.

something for me to actually do thru all
of this. something for me to offer and then
in turn cope.

i was so relieved.

if i have something i can do, then i can cope.

i told my small business counselor about it.
he took the idea and went further.

my brain started runnin' a mile a minute.

i'm still putting it all together.....
but i have these main thoughts in mind....

what can i do for her?
what do i do with all of this?
what can i do to help?
how can i make it so that i can cope better?

answers will come.

he looked at me across the table.
'i can't tell you to build it and they will come.
it doesn't work that way.'

he stopped and just looked at my face.

'okay, i know you believe differently, and
you've proved me wrong before. do what works
for you.'

i smiled.

he then quickly reminded me that he too has
proven me wrong before.

i laughed.

he's a good guy to brainstorm with.

i have no idea what i'm gonna do with these
ideas....
but i now have something to work with, to help
me cope, to create, to offer......

i don't have it yet.
but i have seeds.

and seeds is what you need to start.
seeds are what i need to cope.

seeds are all i can offer sometimes.

all this time i thought we needed to offer things
to the world for the world's sake. i thought we
needed to give.

i've always thought there was magic in the offering.

i think there is magic there.
but not quite like i realized.

it's not for the world that your offering matters.
it's for you.
but it only comes back to you with magic if your
intention is truly for the world.

wow.
what if that's true?