i took the long way today.
i had a goal in mind.
i needed to pray.
what the heck do i even mean by that,
i don't know.
i know i'm not praying to a god in the sky
who's watching me. i'm not sure if i'm trying
to connect to some energy that's outside of me,
i mostly think i'm trying to tune in to what's
deeply deeply inside of me.
i'm really not sure what i mean by praying.
but i knew i needed to.
i have been pushed to my limits in different ways
lately and i needed to tune in to whatever was goin' on.
when i first started bone sighs, i walked and
talked to the universe constantly. promised to
follow my heart and listen to the things i heard.
i figured it was time for one of those talks.
and so i walked. and asked whatever it was i was
asking, what was up? what was going on? what was
i sposed to do?
walking under my trees, i even said out loud 'what
are you doing? you have my attention.'
and then, it occurred to me.....
my attention wouldn't be turned this way without
is that's what's goin' on? i asked out loud.
is all this to get my attention???
and just as i said that a car came whizzing down
the street straight at me.
i am not kidding.
it was aimed straight at me, going fast.
my eyes got big.
i stepped off the road.
he saw me, veered sharp, and kept plowin' by me
at a fast speed.
okay. okay. you got it.
you got my attention.
for real? i asked myself?
is my attention really focused now?
because if that's the point, let me get it so
that we can move forward.
i walked and thought about that.
got to my goodmorningworld spot and looked at the
sky. the rain fell in my face.
yeah. i'm listening. i really am.
and i'm ready to follow.
i turn to my day mindful of an open heart,
ready to act on what i hear.
feels pretty darn good.