cold drink anyone?

it was so simple.

i left cold drinks out for the trash guys.

that was it.

but that act delighted me.
and in the delight, there was a nudge deep inside me.
feelings and thoughts got nudged.
reminders popped up in ways i could really feel them,
not just think them.

the reminder yet again that attitude is everything.
that so much of my reality is made up in my head.
that i can make so much of my reality whatever i want.
that there's millions of little ways to get thru things that feel hard to get thru.
that it is in the way we look at things that our actions change.

all that from leaving cold drinks out for the trash guys.

wow.

i can get as lazy as anyone else.
i can easily say - and have been saying -
i know my attitude needs adjusting....it's just that........

it's just that........

and then i don't adjust a thing.

i have something i've been struggling with.
cause something really lovely has changed.
and i didn't want it to change.
it meant a great deal to me the way it was.

but the fact is, it changed.
and there's a thousand ways i can make it an 'okay' thing.
or i can dig my toes in and say 'i didn't want it to change.'

yeah.
obvious choice.
which i haven't been making.

gonna give myself a little room to be sad about the change.
cause i think that's healthy.
but at the same time, i'm gonna fill the world with a sense of delight.
perhaps look at it like passing out cold drinks on a hot day.
okay, symbolically, anyway.

i keep hearin' that rumi line in my head -
'there's a million ways to kneel and kiss the ground.'

well, i'm thinking there's a million ways to pass cold drinks out on a hot day.
and the more i concentrate on doing that,
the happier i'm gonna feel.....