sillies

the fear.
and the trying to protect thru the fear.
oh my gosh.
when will we EVER learn?

i just watched someone stuck in their fear,
and tryin' really hard to protect themselves.
they finally let go and seem so much happier.

they don't seem any more safe than they were before....
but way happier.

well, gosh,
couldn't we just say that about me recently?
and me lots of times.

it's so much easier seeing it in someone else.
it just makes so much sense that all that struggle they're doing
to stay safe and protect themselves is a waste and a wrestle they don't need.
sillies.
and we need to be patient til they figure it out.
sigh.
and...
yeah.
it's so easy to see when someone else is doin' it.

really.

but when we do it?
it seems so necessary.
it seems so important.
it seems so consuming.

sigh.

sillies.

it doesn't help a thing.
hurts a ton.
and slows us down.

i see it clearly now.
now let's see if i can live it clearly for oh.....
maybe a full weekend?

gonna try.