my friends never know what to expect when they call!
i don't either.
i didn't plan on cryin' on his shoulder.
i didn't mean to.
it just happened.
a little stressed out this morning. wrapped like a tight
elastic band.....
he calls to share news about a friend we're concerned about.
'you worried?' i ask.
'yeah, a little.' he says.
tears come.
poor guy.
prolly thinking he shouldn't have said that.......
once the first tear breaks loose, more come.
i don't mean to.
they just start.
won't stop.
we talk about it.
i babble a lot.
can't make much sense to him....
making lotsa sense to me.....
i really really hate that i can't control everyone's
life!!
i really really want to make everything okay.
i really really hate that just cause you love people,
it doesn't mean their lives will be okay.
i so wish that's how it worked.
i'm a darn control freak.
sigh.
deep breath.
obviously, it does me no good.
obviously, i need to let it go.
trust.
keep opening my heart, don't close down.....
and know that life just keeps on goin'.......
and it already is okay.
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