trust

trust.
i can't think of a more powerful word right now.
love?
yeah...i guess that's prolly the most powerful of all...
just think maybe words get tangled with each other and
you can't have one without the other???
i guess you can love without trusting someone....
love them anyway....
and i guess that's what i'll do right now....
but it sure changes the shades of it all.

i have loves that i trust....
and the shades of that are so deep and rich.

the shades of the love without trust don't feel
so good. shouldn't those shades be just as deep
and rich??? i mean, isn't loving someone because
they need love a deep and rich thing?
why does it feel so sad sometimes?
maybe that's it. there's sad mixed among the
shades of colors.

ahhhh...maybe that's it....
maybe when i feel love....i can't just compare
it to colors. too limited.
it's got to have colors and emotions mixed in
and music too, i think.

maybe when you mix colors, emotions, and
the music you feel inside, maybe then you
get what they call 'energy.'

and maybe that's the difference...
love WITH trust has one fabulous positive
energy that makes me feel so good....

love WITHOUT trust has a whole
different energy.

if only we realized how incredibly,
amazingly important trust is....if only we
understood what was valuable and worth
working for....

i guess we're not born knowing that. or
maybe we are....and we just forget. and
the thing i can do here, is just believe in him
enough to accept where he is, and be there
if he ever wants to rebuild the trust...

acceptance.
loving for real, not to get.
and knowing it's all okay....

it's a lot to do in one morning.....