allowing things to be there......

i have the best sons in the world.
i climbed into the car with two of them last nite.
on our way to pick up the third....
and as we drove down our street, i turned to them
and said "can i just cry? i just really need to. would
that be okay?"

and ya know.......they were really okay with that.

yo was drivin' and he reached over and held my
hand. josh was sitting behind me and his hands
immediately went on my shoulders.

these guys are gonna make awesome partners for
some lucky women.

i cried. told them my sadness. they let me. and then
we moved on.

it was so cool.

i could really move on because they allowed me the
space to just feel. they loved me thru it, and then it
was time for fun. we goofed off the rest of the nite.....

the sadness isn't gone......but it's allowed to be there.

and that in itself feels kinda cool.

'allowing things to be there' is going to be my focus
today.......
should be interesting........