bein' the supportive friend that i am, i was just teasin'
someone i love about her fear.
nice, huh?
and i grinned and said we hadn't even gotten to the
big stuff yet!
well.....after scarin' her more with that flip comment,
it made me think....
once you get one fear down, there's another!
i guess i had been distracted with gettin thru a fear
and then leaving that fear behind.....how that was such
a good thing.
but ya know, it's forever, isn't it?? this fear stuff.
at least with me, it is.
it's so darn forever.
there's always something i'm tryin' to hurdle, walk thru
or hide from! and i'm thinking that somewhere
down deep i was thinking if i got far enough, i wouldn't
have to be doin' this hurdlin', walkin' or hidin' any more.
what was i thinking???
it's a life time of that stuff.....
so get used to it.
make it an accepted part of your life, ter.
not something that you fight all the time.
that was the beginning of a book i read recently. he started
off sayin' life was struggle and if you understood that and
accepted that, it'd help a whole lot.
that's what i feel like with this thought. same kinda thing.
and ya know what?
it sunk it.
but that's only because i'm groggy from a weird nite of
dreams.
in a few hours i will have forgotten, and be fighting some
kinda fear of mine.....
oh well.....such is life.
for the moment, it makes a little sense to me......
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