security and subdued souls

i told someone i love today that i was worried about
their soul gettin' eatten away by their job.

i've been kinda thinking about that a bit over here...

it's a repeating theme this week, third time it's come up
in different ways.

funny too....it's been in the form of a government job,
a private job, and a self employed job.
ah! nothing like covering all the bases!

doesn't have to be a job either, does it?

how is it we let our souls get eatten away without
running to save them???
is it because it happens so slowly we don't even notice??

what are the warning signs?
are they the same for everyone?

and when we do discover it........what then???
do we throw security to the wind and claim our lives
back???
or do we hand it all away for health insurance and
retirement funds??

i'm not accusing or mocking...
i'm seriously wondering.

having fallen apart recently with my own health insurance
crisis and running right to the most secure answer i could
find (which, luckily didn't work out...) i totally totally get
the pull.

i'm thinking maybe it's just cause we can't do the long term
seeing.
we THINK we are.
we THINK we're doin' the long term seeing by planning
retirements and insurance costs....

but are we seein' how quiet and subdued our souls are
growing???

is anyone noticing???