Tuesday, July 22, 2008

seeing and honesty, holding and letting go

why the heck is honesty so darn hard??

wouldn't you think that being honest with ourselves
would be one of the most important things there is
we can do.
maybe THE most important thing??

and yet.......over and over i see myself not doin' it,
and i see others not doin' it with themselves.

i watched it recently outside of myself. (always easier
to watch someone else doin' it!) and saw it was fear
based....of course.

no brainer there, i guess.

fear to really look at things.

thing is........isn't it scarier to get to the end of the
road and realize you never really looked???

that's scarier to me.

i saw it clearly today.

i was about to write that it's not so bad to look.

well, yeah, sometimes it's not.
sometimes tho...it is.
it's tough.
really tough.
and then you have to hold what you see.

i wrote a bone sigh once that really matters to me:

'you can't let go of what you haven't held.'

and i guess that needs to be prefaced with

'you can't hold what you haven't seen.'

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