Tuesday, July 22, 2008

totally muddled

as i walked today i thought of the phrase
'it is what it is.'
that's the latest thought that's been lingering
a bit in my mind....

as far as i can tell, it's acceptance of a situation.

i like it.
wish i could feel it a whole lot more than i do...

but there's something that bothers me with it all....
i feel like when i have acceptance, i don't have other
emotions.....and i'm not sure that's okay with me.

i want to have acceptance and still have compassion
and caring and other things i can't think of right now....

i thought of times when i feel really compassionate.
i don't have a lotta acceptance then.
i want to change things, wish they were different,
maybe even hate the whole situation.....

it's definitely not an even keel of acceptance.

when it's related directly to me, i think of hurts
i've had. when i say 'it is what it is' it's like i've
let go of it all, don't want anything anymore, am
walking away from it.....

it's more of a giving up than an acceptance.

hmmm.......
so even when i think i've got acceptance, i wonder if what
i've got is letting go.....giving up.

is that the same thing??
no.
can't be.

hmmm........now i'm thinking i have no idea of what acceptance
really is.

ha.
go figure.

not only do i NOT have it......i don't even KNOW what it is!!

wow.
guess i have some more thinking to do......

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

first, thanks for the words
i found after all in one of my small town's shops
i've been in need of poetry that hits

second, regarding the blog, i've had a struggle with this myself

but i call it contentment

i've always said i want to be happy but not content because content means i feel safe and all is right with the world

to me it means the journey has ended but i know the greatest life is the journey itself

because my journey is just beginning, i don't want to feel that contentment yet

maybe in many years i'll learn the opposite but i think it depends on how the road wants to travel you

i've probably made no sense but today your words hit home in a big way

again, thanks for the blog and the poetry

Anonymous said...

So, my take is...
it depends on the tone of your thought...your words...
"it is what it is" said softly with a meakness and sadness (accepting)
"it is what it is" said with a finalization and commentment (letting go)
"it is what it is" said with strength, courage and humor...
PRICELESS!!!
And some days I don't know which one it is either...LOL...so that just means YUP! Still growing!!

terri st. cloud said...

i've been tryin' not to comment back (altho sometimes that's so hard...
i really really appreciate the comments) but what 'anonymous' wrote...about contentment....YES!!!
i know those exact feelings and thoughts! thanks for sharing....you
made me hop up in my chair and yell
YES!!!

and ms. pattie......i love your comments. i love the tone thought!
gonna go watch how i do this now!!
thanks......

Anonymous said...

When I was dealing with the same
a friend made a statement ...
love is the strongest thing in ALL matters ...
if you love something ...someone
really love them ...
you can accept ...
you can let go ...
you can touch with
compassion and kindness ...
nothing else is required ...
love is ...

Anonymous said...

i love you

:)
d

Anonymous said...

hey miz teri
how about this...i think letting go is more about allowing the situation to BE...not fighting it or resisting it. giving up is not caring one way or the other. i find them completely different. by ALLOWING, you may still feel what you feel but you don't fight that feeling. by giving up, you're just not feeling at all. make sense?
hugs~
camille