alone

there's a thought lodged in my brain.
won't get out.
won't move.
guess that's cause i haven't had much of a chance
to really sit with it...

the thought...question....is....

what if you really understand that it's yours to go alone?
what if you really accept that and are okay with that?

where does that leave you?

seems to me it would have to leave you in one heck of a good
spot.

where you put less pressure on the things and people around you.
the fact that they are there thru part of the journey rocks.
and that's it.
there doesn't have to be any more than that.

they don't need to do anything.
be anything.
offer anything.

expectations slow down.
the feeling of aloneness would slow down because you would
already know you are alone, and anything extra is gravy.

gratitude would pick up.

seems like it'd be a good thing all around.

and i feel like i'm just now seein' this really clearly.

i musta seen this before.
i musta??

but with me, it's waves. things come in clear, i get them.
then whoosh they wash away and i forget i ever saw them...or
there's a vague memory left....

this is one heck of a cool wave....

wonder how long i can ride it.

alone.
ridin' that wave alone.
and lovin' it.