what if.......

what if you've got a girl who grows up to become a woman who
has some really big stuff to learn.
she has to learn her value, her truth, her power. she has to
see her beauty and her worth. she has to learn how to love herself.

she asks the universe to teach her purity of heart.

no easy task. nothing short of exploding her life will work.
her life explodes.

she has to stop holding on tight to people who don't quite have
healthy love down. she has to learn how to see them for who they are
and accept them, and let them go in a different direction. she has to learn understanding and acceptance.

she learns to surround herself with people who help her grow.
she finds a partner who truly loves her. he helps her learn more
of the love for herself she needs to learn. together they learn to
love for the first time ever. the work is incredible, hard, and worth
it. it's teaching her so much and she's learning in one direction really
big time.

but there's another direction. a deep direction that's all hers.
she hasn't got it down yet. she's got it part way. but there's so
many more layers. how will she really really find that deep stuff?

well....she has to go alone, doesn't she? because it's only she alone
who can do it. it HAS GOT to be a solo journey.

she had to give up the familiar life for the first section of the journey.

she gets a break, she doesn't have to give up the new life she's built
for the second leg of the journey. that's not required.

but goin' a certain distance alone IS required.

how will that happen??

blind her partner.

have him wrapped up in his own journey where he can't get this part.
he gets other parts tho. he's actively involved in the rest of the journey.
and it all relates. so that's important. vital.
his presence matters a whole lot.

it's obvious to her.
the blindness is also obvious and scary to her.

she gets to choose. does she take most of the journey with him and
learn with him by her side all the while taking side trips down to the
place where no one else can see?

why can't anyone else see?

because that's the final deal.
no one else can affirm this.
if she needs anyone else's affirmation here, she doesn't make
the goal.

it's part of the deal.
she has got to get it without anyone else sayin' it's okay, i understand.

she has got to get it on her own, with no permission, no okay, no
reassurances.

everything has got to come from within her. no outside help.

and if she can do that. go there. all the while allowing and accepting
her partner to be blind and to follow his own journey...will she have
found purity? no.
she will have just begun the next phase of what she doesn't even know exists yet.
and on and on she goes.

there's a trick to this, woman.
it's perspective.
know where you're heading. stay aware of the journey.
don't get lost in the drama.
keep your eyes looking forward.
and always, always know when you stumble, you just get up
again.