pondering

i read of a loss yesterday that made me cry.
one of those sad ones that you wonder how the
people remaining will cope. if they'll ever be
okay again.
one of those....

and you know......they won't, will they?

they'll never be 'okay' again.

they're changed forever.

i sit here and think of that....
changed forever.
and what will they do with that change?
what can they do with that change?

i try to imagine what i would do.
what do you do with a broken heart?
a truly truly broken heart that has a huge
piece of it missing...

if you manage to survive, you're doin' good.
if you manage to help others from your pain,
you're incredible.

can anyone find wisdom thru it?
and if they can....what would that wisdom be??

what the heck is it really all about?
why does someone come to the earth for 16 years and
then leave?
why does someone come for 74 years and then leave?
where do they go?
where do we all go?

what's the point?

do i just turn back to my day and get my work done,
and take the day for granted?

do i cherish the moments?
do i get annoyed at someone today for some stupid reason?

do i forget that it's one more day that's incredible
and that i'm okay right now?

how do i remember that every single day is a gift?
is it still a gift if i get my heart broken wide open
like others around me?
is it still a gift if i'm in pain that will never stop?

will i ever understand any of it??

one thing i can't do......turn blindly into my day today.

i may not know where i'm goin', what it's about, how long
it'll be good...
but i have the moment. and this moment i'm gonna love intensely.
because i can.

because i can.
right now i can.
and so i will.