welcome home joy!

if i wasn't convinced before today,
i am totally convinced now.

i am back.

i am so back.

and i am so happy about that.

i drove to the coffee shop for a meeting
today. as i drove, i was overcome with the
beauty of the day. i was just filled with it.
i felt like the day totally reflected what
was inside me. i just felt overcome with it.

i got a seat by the window so i could keep
an eye on the sky and the day. and as i sat
there waiting, i looked at these flowers.
reds and pinks that were so bright and so
perky they just knocked your sox off.

i looked at those things and smiled. i'm
more a blue/violet kinda person....but the
reds and pinks could not have been more
beautiful. they just made my insides laugh,
they were so perky.

and then........i heard it.
i could just barely hear it.
it was violin music. the place was playin'
some beautiful violin music. it was so low
i could just get strands of it...

i sat there lookin' out that window feelin'
like i was just gonna pop.

everything was perfect.
absolutely perfect.

i felt like everything was a reflection of
what i was feeling....music included.

my small business counselor showed up just
then....

i didn't dare tell him.
he already has enough trouble trying to
understand me.

i just looked at him and smiled.
but on the inside....i was poppin'.

i haven't popped like that in ages.

i am so back.
i could just hug myself.
i've missed the joy.

i have so missed the joy.