Wednesday, September 17, 2008

a woman's worst fear....

every woman out there knows this fear:
'oh no. please tell me i'm not turning into
my mother!!!'

well........i saw it this morning.

was buttin' heads with yo at breakfast.

i had my back to him and was makin' the protein
milk shake up.....and it hit me.
ohmygosh....am i bein' my mom???

i stood lost in an internal struggle.

yo's at the table bewildered because i've
gotten quiet and he senses tears.
he's bewildered....but gentle.
comes up behind me to find out what in the
world is happening.

oh man. what these guys go thru....

sure enough.

i caught it.
told him i was thinking.
and then told him what i was thinking.

we talked thru it.
okay, so i cried a bit thru it....

and we worked it out.

takin' care of each other is a good thing.
but takin' care of each other and losin'
sight of each other in the process is
weirdness we don't need. i think that happens
between us.

it's from a good source.....we care a lot
about each other.

but isn't it interesting how that caring can
get turned and twisted when we start assuming
things about the other???

relationships....ANY kind take constant looking
at each other and our own selves, don't they??

and when you find people who make that looking
worth it, it's so darn awesome.

yo definitely makes it worth it....

1 comment:

Merry ME said...

Bewildered but gentle. I like that. I love that in the middle of some kind of mother/son struggle, Yo gave up some of his footing to check on his opponent/mom.
Good going Yo!
FYI: In dealing with women there's probably always going to be bewilderment before enlightenment. Your gentleness will take you a long way in easing the journey.