grunt less, smile more.

i don't usually see josh at nite.
he's out late, i'm alseep early.
my room's by the front door tho so some
nites i hear him. he gets every reaction
you can get late at nite.

sometimes it's a grunt. sometimes it's snoring.
sometimes it's total confusion "who ARE you? what
day is it??" and ALWAYS when he's totally beat
and can't stand up one more minute, i wake up
to hear the whole story and want details!!

well, last nite.....it wasn't at the front door
that i heard him. it was 2 in the morning. we
both had waken and bumped into each other in
the hall.

go figure.

i thought it was just the coolest thing. what
are the chances? (altho, REALISTICALLY some noise
prolly woke us both up... but STILL.....)
so i'm comin' outta the bathroom. light shining
bright. and there's josh. i heard him, so he didn't
startle me.

there he is. standing there squinting his eyes
cause of the light.

and i'm overcome with how this is just the coolest
thing. we're all sposed to be sleeping yet here we
are! and that kinda fills my voice and i smile real
big and say real loud "well, hey, josh!"

honestly, it sounded like i had just bumped into an
old friend at the store.

it took josh by suprise. ( i guess he expected the
grunt) and his head kinda tilted back.
all the while squinting....and he smiled the warmest
smile and he actually stepped forward and hugged me.

honest to pete.

he gave me this really warm hug and said 'well, hey,
mom.'

i know in his mind he was just thinking 'she's so weird.'
but at the same time he loved me.

that's it.
a weird encounter in the hall.
a hug and some loving squinting eyes.
and i curled back in bed.
smiling.

i was thinking how all that sure beat a grunt.
i gotta grunt less at nite.
this is much better.

grunt less. smile more.
should be a rule of life.