back in town.....

we were back in town.
and you could tell.
he was preoccupied now.
not quite the same....

and there we sat.
i was eating yet again.
he was talking on the phone.
it wasn't goin good.

i tried to give him some space.
threw out my trash, went to the
bathroom, walked slow on my way
back...

it wasn't goin' any better....

and then it finished.

sigh.

no.......it had really just started,
hadn't it?

i looked at him.

you okay?

yeah he's okay.

you numb?

yeah he's numb.

he looks at me....

you don't look so okay.

nah....i'm sad about it.

we squeeze each other's hands and
head out......

i dropped him home a few hours later.
got out and hugged him goodbye....
kissed him and told him i loved him....
sat in the car as i watched him walk
into his house........

driving home i wondered where on earth i
ever got the idea that life was easy.

i don't want to fight things anymore.
life isn't easy. it's hard.
if i know that and accept it....and flow
with the good moments, just like i did on
the trip......i think it will make a tremendous
amount of difference.

right now i can.
so i will.

until i start fighting it again......