concentrate and flow

walkin and laughin.
in a good mood today....

was thinking about concentrating on my walk.

and i started laughing.

my guy.....he worries about me when i drive.
see, he's heard stories about me cryin' as
i drive, or writing bone sighs in the car,
or the time i was doin' inner child work and
i imagined i had a car full of little terri's.
he's heard all these stories. and he worries.

whenever i pull off on my own to head home,
he does the ol' eye contact thing just before
i get in the car and reminds me to drive and
to think about driving.

he worries.

well.....the other nite.......i ended up in
the worst downpour of rain i have ever been in.
it was sooooo incredibly down pourish that
i couldn't see a thing. i woulda pulled over,
but i couldn't see to do that...

so. i'm driving.
ohhhhh this isn't good, i think.
i gotta really try here.
yeah.

but then this part of me says....
oh yeah, but how cool is this?! listen to
that sound! wow! and look how it all looks
like you're lost at sea. wow.
i've never been lost at sea. this must
be similar....

then the other part kicks in:
TERRI! WHAT ARE YOU DOIN'?! CONCENTRATE!

oh yeah. yeah. yeah.
where's the road? i can't see a thing.
i wonder if it's a good thing to get next
to that truck or a bad thing?
it could be a good thing as maybe he'd shield
the rain...but maybe it's a bad thing as
he may not drive too well. i wonder what
the guys would tell me. i bet whichever i
pick will be the wrong way i should do it...

TERRI! WHAT ARE YOU DOIN?! CONCENTRATE!

oh yeah. yeah.
and so i buckle down. and i concentrate.
i got to.
i can't stay on the road unless i concentrate.

so. yeah. i made it thru.

but i'm wonderin' about it all.....
i figure there's a better way to concentrate.
a way to concentrate that still allows the
letting go and flowing....

i don't know how to do that.
i either concentrate OR i let go and flow.

wouldn't it be cool to do both at the same time?

i wonder if that's what stevie ray vaughn did?
i always thought he got lost in the flow.....
i thought he opened up to the source and let it
flow thru him. that's what i thought.

i wonder how this all works together........