oh yeah

whew!
it's been a whirlwind wonderful couple of days!
a great day yesterday with the guys....and today
we put the tree up! busy and fun! great stuff!
many laughs, much warmth.

afterwards i ran down to the studio to work on
an order. it was a big one that's in a hurry.
so i was in a hurry. and focused, and busy.

got it all packed and emailed them to let them
know. they wrote back with a story about a customer
and bone sighs.

it just made me stop.
i leaned back in my chair and just held it.

wow.

and then i got up to wrap up a web order.
i was thinking about it and just tryin' to
hold it all when a thought hit me.

i stopped in mid-tape.
and i looked up.
i remembered.
i've been so rushed. so busy.tryin' so hard
to make it all work. whatever....
i've been so whatever that i've forgotten.

none of this is mine.
it's never been.
it's always been beyond me filled with miracles.

and it hit me again.

i just stood there lookin' up towards the ceiling
and grinned.

yeah.
i forgot.
oh yeah.

okay.
okay.
i remember now.

and i'm kinda tickled i remembered.
it's much more fun when i'm on board and
understand i'm only followin'.

kinda takes that pressure off.

i felt so much more relaxed as i finished
up what i needed to do.....

it's so easy to get caught up in that
artificial stress.......

and now......
it's off for more holiday goofin' with my guys.

feelin' way way thankful.......