i choose good today.

i noticed the aggression after the second kid came
in and i wanted to pummel him! when the third walked
in and i still felt aggressive, i figured it was me.

told the boys i was a mess.
started out all aggressive, ended up holding my head
like i just wanted to cry.

we laughed a bit about it
and then i went to exercise it out.

wow. even that took awhile.

so on my walk i checked in with little ter.
oh yes.
she needed checkin' in with.

and she needs some attention badly.

why don't i pay more attention to this stuff??
when i'm off, i'm ignoring something inside.
it's basic. it's easy. it's elementary.
so why does it always take me way too long to
figure out???

oh well....i DID figure it out!

and so......i decided i needed a day where i paid
a bit more attention to all of me. where i tried
to take as much care of me as i have been of everyone
else.

there was leaping and delight inside at this decision!

yay!

i'm thinking it's gonna be a good day.

it's a choice isn't it?
always a choice.....

i choose good today.