i'm in!

i didn't realize this about myself until several
years ago......but i love words!
isn't that funny? hellooooo terri!
i love words and phrases. i guess everyone
around me knew it, except me! but i DID
figure it out!

when someone says a really cool name, i just stop
everything and repeat the name.
anyone remember the movie elf where elf hears the
name 'francesco' and repeats it over and over??
that's me!!! the guys always tease me with that.

when i'm typing an order and there's a neat person's
name or they live on some kooky street, i read it out
loud over and over as i type.

if there's a new word i never heard before (and my
vocabulary is very poor so they're everywhere! which
is kinda fun!) i want to know what it means and i'll
repeat it again and again. and i don't retain anything,
so the same word can get the same play many times over!

when i get an idea in my head that involves a phrase
that intrigues me, i say it all over the place.

like the phrase 'to write love on her arms.'

i'm sure that dating me is trying enough. throw that
stuff in there, and i'm thinking my guy is the most
patient man in the world.

yesterday tho, i tested the limits and loved it!

i had been tellin' him about my visual to write love on
the world's arms. (see post below)...and i kept
using that phrase when i talked.

i knew just tellin' him the visual was pushin' his
limits. but i had vowed to be really open and i thought
it was important. so i was pretty free with it.

he was great. held up well. did good.
you must understand that this is not his kinda vocabulary,
talk, or thought process. it's all foreign to him.

later that day we were out havin' lunch. we started talkin'
about people dyin'. we're gettin' to that age where it's
actually a topic!! it led into a conversation about how long
we had left and how short life was which led me to the
enthusiastic burst of 'WHAT SHOULD WE DO WITH WHAT WE
HAVE LEFT?! LET'S FIGURE IT OUT!!!'

get the picture? the man gets points for hangin' in there
this long with me!

so now we're driving. talkin' about it all. we're talkin'
about living in the present, enjoyin' the moments, makin'
the most out of things....all the stuff that you get to
with these thoughts.

he's driving.
i'm in the passenger seat inspired about living.
he's just driving.
he's way way way different than i am. he's done with the
whole thing, decided we just have to enjoy now. he's enjoyin'
now so he's done.

i'm sittin' next to him all revved up thinking it's time
to storm the planet, grab our lives, and DO SOMETHING WITH
THEM!!!!

so then.....it hits me. and i pause in mid rant.
i look over at him.
he's driving.
just driving.
looking straight ahead.
he's tryin' to figure out what he needs at lowes.
i'm tryin' to figure out how to utilize every second
of my time here......

we're quite a pair.

'welllll'........i say real slow and low...........

'what?' he wonders. she's changed gears. where are we goin' now??

'there IS something in PARTICULAR we can do' i say real slow.....

he's driving.
looking straight ahead.

'what?'

'well........we could.....together.....we could write love
on the world's arms!'

i watch his face real close.

he has the best eyes in the whole world. i've learned to
read them from the side of his face too. they do this
real slight crinkle up thing when he's amused and totally
confused.

there it was.
the slight crinkle up thing.

he grins.

'yeah, i guess we could.'

i laugh and clap my hands!!!
he's the best!!

we get out of the car and i'm boppin' around him
as we walk across the parking lot to lowes.
'this could be so cool! we could do this together!'

he grabs the back loop of my jeans and reels me in,
laughs, puts his arm around me and just walks me into
the store.

i'm distracted. there's stuff to look at. he gets
some peace for a bit.

that nite i tell my sons with great glee that he and i
have decided to write love on the world's arms together!!
he, of course, is just standing there with no emotion on
his face except for a tiny glint in his eyes.

the boys are confused.
who???
what???

i just laugh and hop around!
isn't it wonderful?! i exclaim!

no one knows what's goin on.
no one knows what really happened.

i don't either!!
but i know i've got a guy who doesn't know what to do with
me, he doesn't work like i do, he doesn't think like i do...
but he's willin' to hang on and go for the ride!

and maybe that's all we have to do with our time here.....
be present, and hang on and go for the ride!!!
AND to write love on the world's arms!!!

i'm in!