laughin' or cryin'.....

we were going to catch up.
so much to say.
so many stories to share.

but the health report came first.
she'd had a doctor's visit so there
would be news...

and so she filled me in.
i listened. and told myself to breathe.
tears would not help the situation.

we talked about it all.
and it was heavy to hold.

i had to go.
told her i'd call her again later so
we could laugh a little. told her i'd
call her this afternoon with a funny
story...

and then i got in my car and i drove...
and i thought....and i cried....and i
prayed....

and i thought 'i haven't got a funny thing
to share....i can't do it.'

hours later i heard myself on the phone
with her. we were laughin' like little kids.
we took all kindsa stories that were goin'
on...and most of them were hard stories...
and we laughed about them. we made fun of
it all, and goofed with it all and laughed.

i hung up the phone amazed that we could do
that...

and then i wondered why i was so surprised.
we were champs with that. isn't that what
we've always done together?

honestly, i never shared such scary moments
with anyone like i have with her...and we
laughed thru those!

and here we were again.
some things never change, i guess.

except for when they end...

i'm not so good with endings......

she reminds me once again to put my big
girl panties on and find my way thru....
laughin' or cryin'...we'll get thru......