and so the circle goes....

whew.
it's a tough one.
it started out tough...and got tougher.

acceptance.
i certainly suck at that stuff.

okay, so you work real hard at trying to accept
someone. you see a whole lotta problems. not just
problems. things you see as 'sickness.' things
you see as harmful. things you see as deadly.

you can't change that. you can't fix that.
all you can do is decide how much you want to be
a part of it and try to balance that.

maybe?

okay.
maybe.

so you work on balancing.

harder than you think.

it works real well to stop seeing them as a person.
start seeing them as something different. not exactly
sure what but something different.

no.
that doesn't work well at all.
that's so dead wrong.
but it seemed to help.
seemed to make it easier to accept.
but it's not acceptance.
it's masked as that, but it's not that at all.

so you see the blunder there.
and you adjust.
and you cope.
and you try to tell yourself you're accepting.
but you know you're not.
you're just passing time.

and then you see it.

they've passed this on to their offspring.

it's continuing.

oh man.

and you curl in a ball and wonder what to do.

and then your friend writes you and is seeing the
same thing in a situation around her.

of course.

this is how the world goes round.

this is how the world goes round.

and you need to accept it.

wow.

is that right?

or do you change focus?

cause it's not just in this aspect.
there's the good that gets passed along.
i've seen it over and over.
the good hearts that get passed to offspring.

the generosity, kindness, love.

that happens too.

do you just concentrate on that?

do you ignore the other?

do you figure it's a balancing act the world does?

whenever i get so muddled and have no clue,
i turn to me.

okay.
all i can do is me.

and i work on me.

but working on me is working on learning how to
accept.

and so the circle goes round and round.
just as the world does.