talkin' to myself

a friend who's just been in a whirlwind for a bit
checked in today. she was filling me in on the new
love in her life. it was so fun to read. and then
she asked me 'how's your love life?'

i grinned.
i felt like i was 16 again.
passing notes about our guys.

so i wrote and told her it was good.

maybe not quite the way i would have worded
it when i was 16...
i found myself writing 'the more i know that
guy, the more i like him.' and i smiled.
cause that's the god's honest truth.

it's not really what i woulda been thinking
at 16....but at 47....it so matters to me!

and i know that that's not always the way it goes.
i know what a valuable thing that is.

it's been a long time for him and i. we were talkin'
about that the other day. he said we've been dating
longer than some people are married!

and i find myself still seeking his advice, looking
for his opinion, wanting his thoughts.

i can remember losing that along the way in my
marriage. i remember knowing that i lost that.
and i remember the tragedy of that.

when you lose that.....what have you got?

and so......i sit here and think about it.
and treasure that goofball neanderthal.

it's been a long road since that sixteen year
old passed notes about a guy....
and oh how i wish i coulda had a little talk
with her!

hey! i guess i still can!

laughin'!
it's never too late to talk to yourself!