a new mantra

'we shall not cease from exploration
and the end of all our exploring
will be to arrive where we started
and know the place for the first time.

-t.s. eliot


i kinda like it when i read a poem
like this one above.
cause sometimes i feel like a total
weirdo with all the exploring.
and a total lamo that i can't get
the concepts faster and hang on
to them!

when i read a poem like that, i feel
okay and actually kinda excited....
cause yeah....i WANT to explore!

don't know why, but i feel like i'm
in a good place where i can today.
which is good cause it's a bob day.

he's excellent to grab and search with.

i'm tryin' to find a little mantra
i can start sayin' every day to myself.

when i first first started out on my own
i had one i said 500 gazillion trillion
times to myself:

"everything i need is within me."

man, did i need that one.

now i want a new one.

'i am enough' kinda thing....
but it's gotta go further than that.

'i deserve happiness' kinda thing...
but that's too blah.

so i'm in search of a mantra that hits
me, feels right and one i can say
gazillions of times to myself.

i think i might just start there.

what the heck.

i know i leaned on that other one a lot.

a good first step!

now. how hard can it be to figure this out?!