i don't even know how to be coherent this
yesterday i got into an email exchange with
someone who gets our quote of the day.
one thing led to another and i found myself
reading emails that were written by a friend
of hers in south africa.
this friend is down there til december
working with women and children where rape
is a way of life.
i tell ya, i read these letters and cried
and cried. and yeah, you will hear more about
it as i'm gonna set up something where everyone
can read them and we can reach out and help.
but for now, the stories are whirling in my mind.
they're ugly. they're horrible. they're heart
and i keep thinking of the mindset of the men
who do these things. and how they can not possibly
view women and children with any value at all.
and babies?? how on earth can this happen??
and yeah, i know...it happens everywhere.
i think of the men and i cringe.
how could they have gotten this way?
and then i think of the men in my own life.
i know some amazing men.
and my own guy called this morning as i was
headin' out for a walk. i grabbed the cell and
took him along. he was asking for input on how
to help his sister who was struggling. he was
asking for advice on how to be emotionally there
i know that the world is chock full of amazing
men. and that i know more than my share of them.
i know that hating men isn't gonna help me here.
i just feel soooo crazed inside.
and then last nite josh called. there had been
some police investigation stuff happening at his
work. he found out why. a lawyer who works in his
building was raped in the parking lot.
i was tucked in bed reading when he called.
i leaned against my pillow and just said 'oh noooooo.'
i closed my eyes and felt so bad.
is it power? is it because they can? is it such
a screwed up view of a sexual drive?
there will be bone sigh writing today. and working
on this project to make a donation site. there
will be tears and frustration. and somehow hope.
if this woman who is seeing all this first hand can
hang on to hope.....then i certainly will.
what an incredible whirl inside of me today.....