zakk wasn't feelin' good. he stayed home to just
hang out. yo and i headed to josh's for dinner.
the rhythm between family is one of my all time
favorite things. the pullin' the dishes out, the
choppin' the food, the chatterin' while we move
around each other. i love that.
as we sat around the table eating, we shared our
stories and thoughts. there wasn't a dull moment.
i had been waiting to tell them a story of mine,
so i shared. they came back with their thoughts
on it. we talked, asked questions, were interested
in each other. politics, relationships, work, and
dreams were mixed together with that meal.
all the while, i noticed zakk wasn't there.
when one is missing, i always feel it. always.
i hoped he was just layin' around resting.
and i watched us around the table.
i do that.
and i treasure.
josh wanted to show us a song he'd been workin' on.
i laughed and i clapped and i squirmed with delight
on my stool.
we clapped for him, praised him, enjoyed him.
'you've gotten really good, josh, or it's been way too
long since i've heard you play,' yo said.
we talked of how he could tweak something he was struggling
with. he was inspired. rarin' to go to work on it.
we left him working, and headed out to the night.
the chatting was easy on the way home. and we both
delighted in what josh was doing. we fell into talk
of our own projects and what we were doing with them.
the support we share. the ideas we come to each other for.
the safe place to ask where to tweak, and how to tweak
things that we can't figure out. we all do that. we
all come to the others for ideas, and thoughts. i think
it's really unusual, and may be because we're all creating
our own work and we're all trying to learn as we go
along. whatever the reason, i know it's gold.
gettin' out of my car in my driveway under the moon,
i thought of josh back home workin' away on his song and
i know i can't keep them all under one roof...
and soon it will be many roofs.
but i saw how connected we all are.
and the love between us.
i was overwhelmed with gratitude.
and headed in to check on zakk.