practice

it never ceases to amaze me how life is full of
practice.

practice.
practice.
practice.

so i read this 'die to it' stuff i posted in
the blog yesterday, and wouldn't you know i
get something in my life that totally pushes
my buttons.

oh for pete's sakes.

she's the queen of button pushing in my life.
and it's even more than pushing my buttons, it's
actively doing things that hurt.

so i hear this little whisper 'die to it.'

sigh.

i think maybe this time i'm gonna do something
about it once and for all....

the whisper rolls thru again....
'die to it.'

yeah, yeah, yeah...but what about....

'die to it.' echoes inside me.

i think of the ego/soul comment (see post below)
and i know absolutely ego is runnin' the
show inside me right now.

die to it. see the bigger picture.
die to it. let go of the ego stuff.
die to it. focus on the all, not just your little
corner.

so i walked.

and i tried.

and i think while i walked, i did.

but i think i might have to keep doin' it.

don't think i'll be able to get it in one walk.
but that's okay.

this is all new to me.

i gotta tell ya, it felt kinda cool.

i had a lot of anger, hurt and wanting to do
something about it.

and this kinda just brought me to a place of letting
go and watching a bird soar thru the sky.

a much better place.

like i say, don't think i'll stay there.
but i think i may work on this die to it stuff.
my first try and i liked the results....