my son

my gosh, the guy is amazing.

he was soooo gentle and kind mixed in with
funny and outgoing. thoughtful and entertaining,
talented, and supportive, tactful and blustering.

i sat and watched him and felt so lucky to have him.

josh hosted one of his talent shows with his students
last nite. i tell ya, when i see him do stuff like that,
i just love him. he just shines. his spirit just shines.

and i'm not the only one who thinks so.
parents were stopping me last nite telling me how wonderful
he is.

i have to rethink my responses as i eagerly join in
and agree. they usually laugh at my enthusiasm.
but i KNOW he IS amazing. but maybe i need to give them
more room to tell me like it's news to me. grin.

one mom stopped me last nite and said 'you know what
it is??? he makes his students feel special. his students
go away from him feeling really good about themselves.'
she pointed out she had three sons. and put her hand on
the oldest son's shoulder. i turned to him and asked
'you're the oldest? you anything like josh??'
and he looked at me, got this serious look on his face
and said 'it even scares me how alike we are.'

i laughed. if it's true, he's one heck of a guy!

driving home with josh, i relayed some of the stuff people
said to me about him. and i looked over at him.
'if you don't think what you're doing is making a difference,
bud, then you really need to rethink.'

he knows. he really does. he talks to kids about life stuff
in the lessons. he's talked to girls about cutting, talked
to students about suicide, listened about problems with parents,
and supported kids with families divorcing. the list is endless
of the life that comes thru as he teaches guitar. and he teaches
them how to be good at something. and he reminds them that they
are good at stuff. and he tells them they count and he's proud
of them. he knows. he really does.

but sometimes he forgets.
and so i remind him.

and we talked about how important it is.

and it so is.

and he does it with grace, and a style that only josh has.

i am so lucky that he's my son.
and i am so darn proud of him.