twenty five years ago today, josh came into the world.
he wasn't here before that.
where was he???? was he really nowhere???
that muddles me every time i think about it.
and now i can't imagine life without him.
i sit and look out the window and wonder where those years
have gone. and how this young man that i look
at now was ever really that tiny little guy in my arms.
i watch him grow and struggle and reach out and touch the
world around him and i'm in awe of this whole darn process
i don't know if it's because it's his 25th birthday, or
it's the early hours of the day, or what...
but i'm just filled with this feeling of having no understanding
of what it's all about, kinda knowing it's all beyond me,
and surrendering to that today.
surrendering to that today and covering myself in gratitude
for being allowed to watch a little boy become an extraordinary man.
happy birthday, josh.
you make my life beautiful.