ah yes.....

alrighty...this one so totally fits with my blog i posted
yesterday that i gasped!

i have read this before. and before that. and before that.
i have it underlined in blue crayon with a star next to it.
apparently i've always understood its importance - but with
where i'm at now it made my eyes pop. so with the blog from
yesterday in mind....check this out......oh man, i want to
type the whole page out!!! remember, this isn't just love -
it's life -

''learn by asking the life/death/life nature direct questions
about love and loving and then listen to her answers. through
all, we learn to not be misled by the nagging voice at the
back of the mind that says, 'this is all silly...i'm just making
this all up.' we learn to ignore that voice and listen to what
is heard beyond that. we learn to follow what we hear - all those
things that bring us closer to acute awareness, the love of
devotion, and a clear view of the soul.

...what must i give more death to today, in order to generate more
life? what do i know should die, but am hesitant to allow to do so?
what must die in me in order for me to love? what not-beauty do i fear?
of what use is the power of the not-beautiful to me today? what should
die today? what should live? what life am i afraid to give birth to?
if not now, when?

if we sing the song of consciousness till we feel the burn of truth,
we throw a burst of fire into the darkness of psyche so we can see
what we're doing. this is the untangling of ones' feelings and the
beginning of understanding why love and life are to be lived by the bones.'

- clarrissa pinkola estes, women who run with the wolves


oh my gosh.
and interestingly enough, my back started hurting yesterday. and once
again i've got the back thing goin' on......
and i swear it feels like i'm ready to just give birth.
i swear, i just want to lay down, give birth, and give my back a
break.

kinda funky weird, huh?
kinda awesome cool.
i swear this is big stuff......

if we sing the song of consciousness till we feel the burn of truth,
we throw a burst of fire into the darkness of psyche so we can see
what we're doing.